FeiticeiraRose

Back around the middle of April, after failing to find working here or in Cali, and our encroaching end of lease date, I started searching for work exchange for housing opportunities. This of course being a tiny bit more difficult when searching for a place who will take in an unmarried couple, but also their two feline companions. But I lucked out!
After sending several emails to numerous ads, a couple responded for a child care exchange. James and I watch their children and do general house-keeping and some handyman stuff around the house in exchange for room, boarding and $100 a week. There's no time limit, it's basically until they decide they want to change nannies/housekeepers or we decide we're ready to move again.
Things are looking positive again. Hopefully life moves up from here.

James and I have been struggling so fucking hard the past eight months. Doing whatever work we can find for whatever amount of cash we can get to support us and our two cats (whom we'd never give up because those are our children.) We have been living with a very kind woman doing a work exchange for rent, rebuilding her little condo and helping her out anyway we can.

However on May 31st our lease is coming to an end.

We still haven't found full-time or even part time employment anywhere. Not to say we haven't been trying, I have one or two interviews a week with no success.
Meaning we're going to be hungry and homeless come the end of May.

His Dad would let him stay at his house, but not me. He frowns upon the whole "not being married" thing.  James won't go anywhere without me. We were separated for 3 months before while he tried to get things to work in Virginia, and it was hell on us.

At this point I honestly don't know what to do. I haven't given up on the job search, and I haven't been limiting myself on where and what I apply for. No one will just give me a fucking chance.

Oh and my credit is complete shit, with the combination of my parents having their utilities in my name and then not paying them, and them over-drafting my account, and the divorce. So credit checks? Yeah I fail.

I'm desperate, any advice at this point would be greatly appreciated.

because it might come true.

a new home

a new love

a new life

I'm happier than I have ever been before, but empty without employment.

But James keeps me going. He makes me smile, even when I attempt to refuse.  

Things aren't easy, but then again life never is.

I ended up cutting ties to my parents, but in the end it's all for the better; I deserve better.

The new family I have with him. Who encourages me, supports me, and most of all loves me for who I am.


And doesn't try to change me into a different person.



I sleep happy at night now.


Thank you.

When you've lived 25 years you would think you would have more to show of what you've accomplished in life. Instead all I have is an Associates Degree that I have barely used, $45k in debt, divorced and living with my parents who won't even leave me enough money from my paychecks so I can legalize my car.
I wish I could say I've had a wonderful birthday, but seeing as how my birthday will probably be spent working and most people even forgetting about my existence unless Facebook tells them about me, I can't really say that I that I have.

I get a job, I start supporting myself again, and I've become forgotten. Thanks guys.

Wow, I'm surprised I've had so many views, and flattered as well.

Anyways, when I have the time this weekend I'll doodle a little thank you something <3

Work has been... well work. A paycheck is a paycheck right?

Except I haven't been too careful with my per diem this week, and i'm down to $14 with two days left. Fortunately, I went to walmart earlier today and bought some food to munch on for tomorrow (hence why I'm down to $14.....besides having to eat next door at IHOP because we've been stranded at our Hotel because of Snow.)
I also spent $10 on a pair of speakers for my ipod which require no batteries, or AC/DC connection! which is full of win

... it was an unnecessary purchase, yes... but i'm tired of a 9 hour drive without music I can share, and the car i'm driving back home to austin in has no place for a Audio cable to plug an ipod directly into a stereo.. and it's a CD player not a tapedeck. ._.

On another note, the hotel staff are almost driving me to the point of smoking again. =.= I haven't have a working room key thats stayed activated more than 24 hours, to get towels or my trash taken out I have to request it, no one changed our sheets or made our beds AND to top it all off a couple days ago one of the staff members thought a coworker and I weren't guests at the hotel while we were eating breakfast and threatened to kick us out. I've been practically living here except for one day a week for the past two weeks, so the thought of someone thinking we weren't a guest at the hotel makes me... infuriated.
I'm just glad this is paid for by my company, and not by me... cause I would have left and asked for a refund a long time ago.